Friday, March 31, 2017

Heaven is my home

This time it's about my little family, in fact my littlest angel at home.


Most recently, she would ask me out of nowhere things like “what if God is not real?”  “I wonder how heaven is really like”.  She is genuinely and actively putting the Kingdom of God at the top of her mind.  Sometimes I wonder if she does that because she knows how much it pleases me to hear that from her.  But it always comes so natural.  When I asked her the other day who her BFF is – she would give me an obvious name, and then mentioned another girl and her reason is because that girl is also a Christian and loves God.  I feel like God has sent an angel to my family to keep me on check on what is important.  Stay focused, turn your eyes onto the right path.  She loves me to death but I won’t be surprised if she would give up on me to pursue what our Heavenly Father calls on her for.  And for that, I can’t be more grateful and fearfully say “here you go Lord.  Use her for Your Glory.”


I can go on and on about her maturity, calmness, and consideration since she was 1 years old when she would be awake by my side, enjoying herself (as in nothing to do), until I would wake up several hours later; 2 years old when she would walk to my bed needing my company in the middle of the night, and I would go to her bed and stay with her; then she would tell me after a while that she was okay now and I could go back to my bed.  She does what every parent doesn’t want and would stop immediately – watching cartoons all day.  However, when I ask her to stop and talk to me, she would not hesitate to pause to have a meaningful conversation with me, make sure I’m well attended to, before she continues with her watching.  Prob. no one would agree with me, but much like some people needing their hobbies to help fuel their energies and bring their best out, and maybe TV is part of that equation for her.  If I had greatly limited her watching time, I think her imagination that her teacher praises her highly of, could be greatly suppressed.  

Thursday, October 13, 2016

"No way!" or "Why not?"

Two simple reactions but two very different mindsets.

The last few months, I have been having back to back "No way!" moments.  No way because it's amazing; no way because I'm in a bit of disbelief; no way because it is not what I can control.

No way moment #1: Searching for a violin teacher for Makayla and came across some highly regarded teachers.  But God gave me a reco for a teacher who is close by, who charges reasonably, and an active Christian!  I knew she's it.

No way moment #2: Then Hazel suddenly decided to do drums.  So I just went to L&M to see what they offer.  They gave me two names.  I walked to the side in the store and did a quick online stalking.  The store highly recommended teacher A; as for teacher B - the only comment was "he's new".  The choice seemed obvious.  However, I found out that this teacher B is a Christian who plays drums regularly in church.  More importantly, he is pretty vocal in the social media with his confession of his belief.  Only a few days before, something triggered me to look up something around near death experience.  And here I came across his testimony talking about his near death experience, just a day later.  No way!!

Side note: I didn't think about the teacher being Christian that much initially but when the option was there, I immediately knew the pick.  I want my kids to be introduced to music not only by someone who loves music, but appreciates its connection with God.  This someone is not only a teacher.  This someone is a mentor for my kids.

No way moment #3: Had a minor car accident recently.  Never ran into a car accident that needed to deal with the insurance folks.  So my first time came, and God sent me the angel of a witness who was right behind me at the time.  That made the whole settlement process so much smoother.

No way moment #4: Then when I had my car back from the repair, my two minor unrelated damages to the same side of the car were fixed as well.  No way!!

No way moment #5: New director came on board, and it's logical to discuss my role which should support him part of my time.  He had a different idea of my title - which led to a natural conversation of a promotion.  This is still underway.  But how would I have thought such circumstance would have created such a natural case for promotion?  Both Ivan & my jobs have been going really well, despite the economy crisis in Calgary.

No way moment #6: Chary left and we decided to give away the two beds downstairs as well.  When she came and pick up the beds with her friends, Hazel's phone that disappeared for almost a year resurfaced!!

No way moment #7: With the new life without a nanny, I was going to split cooking with Ivan's mom.  But as it turns out, she's doing all the cooking, I'm doing the rest, and prepping for the kids' lunches.  It's been going amazingly well. :)

No way moment #8: I got an email from H's teacher yesterday and I curiously looked through the email addresses of other parents and noticed one that belongs to a church.  What I have discovered is one of her new good friend is actually a pastor kid and the family is leading this church in the North that has an awesome youth outreach program.  I ask God - is that a lead?????????????

No way moment #9: Had Hazel's drum teacher come tune H's new (used) drum set tonight and we had a pretty good conversation about God and other religions, and how we feel sad for people's need for God.  I have had the most spiritual conversation with him than with anyone else (other than Ivan) in a long while.

No way moment #10: Our cruise trip with the family turned out to be one of the most amazing.  The trip design wasn't the best, but we were able to watch the final week of the Olympics day in day out, under the sun, dipped in the pool or hot tub, looking at the xxxx sq in big screen TV!

You may ask - why not?  Because I believe God is actively intervening and dropping blessings in my life.  I have no way but acknowledge and be extremely thankful for His blessings.  I could go away and take everyday's every little thing for granted.  But No way!! :)

Monday, November 16, 2015

After thoughts on the Paris terrorist attacks

I have been wanting to start writing about things I see, I hear, I feel and didn’t realize the first thing that really prompted me to write the first article is the Paris attack.  There are two things coming out of it that keeps me thinking.

First of all, the first thing that came to my mind was GOD.  Where was He?  Or more like what was He thinking on the sideline?  I had a lot of questions – we have prayed to God for little things and we trusted and have witnessed His deliverance.  What have we done differently on things like this?  Is it because that we haven’t prayed for world peace enough?  Is it because of the free will that He has given to every mankind that when people take it to the level such as this, He has to (painfully) let people experience the consequence of it?  I never doubt of His presence nor His ability.   And I think it’s okay to ask (it’s different from “question”) why.  One thing I realize is how little I understand Him.  While I can easily park this into the “mystery_God_does_not_plan_for_us_to_understand” lot, there is a lot I can actually learn from the Old Testament.  Please help me know You better, please help me understand all these and what You want me to take away from these.  While as Christians we don’t fear death, no one should be put through terror to die.  I know more people will question Your existence, or Your love.  I hope more will come to see You through all these.  The Sunday morning after the attacks, there was this song I sang for the first time.  I don’t remember the name of the song, but it talked about calling upon the Kingdom to come.  I was tearing up.  Yes, please – may Your Kingdom come upon every corner and let You be known to all the lost souls! 


The second thing that has got me thinking is this thing that has since crawled up the traffic in social media saying why people all mourn for Paris but not Beirut.  I asked myself – are we really biased like people say, because there are Caucasians in the casualty that it worths the mourning and attention more so than similar deaths in other parts of the world?  I don’t think so.  People tend to get really sensitive over these things and flood the internet with their theories; but we should always discern why we choose to do what.  There are so many accidents, massacres, terrorist attacks occurring around the world (sadly).  The reason some incidents hit home more so than the others are because 1. People relate to it.  When all the sudden, a terrorist attack happens in a place I have been to, of course I’m more concerned.  The memories of us walking on the streets of Paris at night, and dining in this awesome restaurant we discovered on the street came back to me as I read the news (as it turns out we were in district 12 which is not where the attacks occurred).  But see, many of these so called main media outlets are made up of people / countries who are closely related to this place, who have friends and family, who have likely travelled to this place and they would naturally feel the pain (considering Paris is such a highly travelled city).  If there is a Chinese or Canadian casualty in there, it aches my heart more.  The same with the incidents in Thailand, in the Philippines in the last few years – because those are places where people from my home country were affected, I was torn by that.  The HK news had intense coverage of them.  But I don’t expect CNN / BBC to be all over it.  2. People feel the proximity to it.  In Canada for instance, Trudeau is promising taking on 25,000 Syrian refugees by the end of the year.  We as citizens should know what it means and know where we should stand on this issue.  Other countries have been talking about similar issue.  It is reasonable for these citizens to be concerned about what will unfold about these terrorists, and if that can potentially be a threat in their own country.  And adding to that, these media outlets or these countries that are showing support just happen to be more accessible and transparent to the rest of the world, making people thinking that everybody is just talking about Paris not Beirut.  In reality though, they are media outlets (think CNN, BBC, Twitter, Facebook, Google etc.) that belong to a country.  They shouldn’t be wrongly represented as a global news media and be judged accordingly.  Every news media has a reason to be biased towards certain events in the world because of how their country and people relate to it.  Let’s be reasonable on that than jumping into these unfair conclusions.  It’s saddening to hear about any of these tragedies wherever they are, and it feels worse when you can relate to it.

Monday, October 26, 2015